I have always been a big girl but I have been able to lose weight in the past and maintain it.
Then the usual story happened, I met my husband, we fell in love, built a house, got married, had 2 wonderfully beautiful children, worked, played etc etc.
In that 10yr period I had gained well over 30kgs. (In between, losing some then gaining some, pregnancies etc).
I was at the stage where I just didn't care (although deep down of course I did), I just kept looking around and seeing other big women and thought well they are, who cares if I am.
I had once had the determination to lose 25kg and maintain it, I had even given up smoking after 15 years of the horrible habit (almost 4 years smoke free, yay), why couldn't I find the determination this time?
My work shirt did it for me! It was a size 22 and bulging at the buttons when I sat down and the bottom button kept popping open as well. I thought right, I could either secretly buy another one and have it embroidered without telling work (I was too embarrassed to ask for a bigger one) or I could do something about it. I decided the latter.
So on the 31st October last year I had my first visit with Nicole. At the time that I met Nicole I was well and truly at my heaviest (without being pregnant).
It took me a while to get focused though, because I just kept thinking oh who cares if I just have another fizzy drink, who cares if I just have another row of chocolate, or more chips. I started adding healthier foods to my diet and drinking more water, but I still wasn't losing what I wanted. So I decided to cut out all fizzy drink, junk food, chips, etc. Oh except when I was out, but after a week I thought NO!, No more excuses! It has now been about 4-5 weeks and I don't miss then at all!
Nic would set me challenges, like getting my family photo with my kids at santa time, and which I did it as I am the mum always behind the camera and never in the photo. This was a big thing for me to do, but it helped enforce to me that my family are the reason for my journey. I don't want them to miss out on the memories because I'm too annoyed with myself to get in the photos.
When the 5 week challenge started I thought right lets do this and drop some weight as I had only lost 4kgs since I had started with Nicole (3 months earlier) and this played heavily on my mind.
On the 26th January 2015 the challenge started and I started to consciously think about what I was putting in
my mouth. I had also found I wanted to learn about Calories and Kilojoules, and since then, have I been blown away! For instance my favourite cheese was loaded and full of them, so I consciously decided Bocconcini it now is. I have made lots of other changes like this too, with Nicole's help.
I consciously think about all my food now too, whereas before I was just putting things in my mouth without even giving it a second thought and before I knew it the packet was empty. I now consciously think oh I should have another drink of water, or well I actually feel full I'll stop now. I plan my meals ahead of time too, and I'm now eating so much more vegetables and salads, before I would just go mmm... what to have for tea, oh just pasta and chips and sausages will do tonight, it's quick and easy.
I eat 6 times a day, and I am actually getting hunger pains, something I don't remember getting very often before, because I would just eat for the sake of eating. I eat when I'm hungry now and that's usually every 2-3 hours. Listening to my body, and using my head have helped me lose an additional 6kgs over the 5 week challenge.
Nic has introduced me to Park Run (In the 4 months that I have been doing it, well 9 times I have made it to them, I have smashed 10 minutes off my first ever time!). I have become a Blood Donor, finally, something I have wanted to do forever! I belong to a wonderful group, F.L.A.S.H, and read some inspirational stories on the Facebook page. I am helping to sell raffle tickets for The Worlds Greatest Shave, even getting my work to donate a great prize. I'm doing so much more with my family now too, and even including myself in pictures too! #nomoresidelineliving.
I have lost a massive 10kgs in 4 months, I am more determined than ever to continue with the weight loss. I have 20 more kilos to go, which is only 2 more 4 months, so bring on the next 4! I feel more energized and happier than I have in a long time. Keeping focused and thinking I would rather lose more weight than eat that piece of chocolate or chips or have that fizzy drink, is how I'm doing it.
I am living My life again (tears here), I am finding Me again and it feels wonderful.
Nicole has been more than my Dietician, she has become a wonderful friend, coach, mentor, inspiration, and lots more. Thank you so much Nicole.